India, nightmare, and feeling like a failure
“Investment in knowledge pays the best interest.”
Let me take you back to a hot, sunny North Indian day back in 2015.
It was the day when I had a nightmare in broad daylight.
It was the day when JEE Mains result was to be announced.
I was sitting on the staircase of my house.
I was thinking what if I didn’t make the cut-off.
Then one thought just jolted me - it was too scary to think.
I went along the tangent of…
“If I don’t qualify, I will have to go to a shitty college.
Going to a shitty college would mean getting a low package.
That would later translate to marrying a guy who’s also getting a low package.
I will never get rich and will be a failure. FML”
I felt my heart sink.
I thought what was the use of standing first in class all these years when I couldn’t perform when it really mattered.
I was full of regret.
I wished I had studied seriously.
I could see my dreams crashing one after another.
It’s so vivid that I remember that sinking feeling even today.
(Will let you know the actual result in the next one)
Why am I telling you this story?
If thinking of failure and how your life will pan out is a nightmare in itself, imagine how a failed life will look like.
It’s a pretty grim picture.
Lying on your deathbed and thinking…
Damn, I wasted my life.
I could have done so much more with the potential that I had.
I wish I could get another chance to make it right.
The bad news is that you only have 1 life.
The good news is that you still have time.
Time to avoid this scenario.
Time to avoid a life full of regret.
Time to still make things right.
But on one condition…
You have to become a person who
Takes the right decisions.
Is surrounded with the right people.
Puts in the work required to make dreams a reality.
I want you to live a life that you dream of, so would like to re-emphasize my point with this quote so that it gets hammered down:
“Of all the words of mice and men, the saddest are, "It might have been.” ― Kurt Vonnegut
Keep Blooming,
Bani Singh